A lot of things are building up for me at the moment, the situation is becoming pretty dire. I used the "I'll do it when I get back" line for my trip to Melbourne, now I'm back.
in order of importance:
1: Quit Sanity.
2: Work more at instant and look for new job. Use my spare time to paint the canvas I brought 6 months ago and still haven't touched.
3: Move out. Jordyn is kicked out and in temporary living conditions, now or never.
4: Get sober. (of the chemical kind at least.)
As for Sanity, it's a huge disadvantage being great friends with your boss. Whilst the entire time Tim has been at Thailand I've been showing up late and basically not doing the job right, if at all. Tim returned and some of my motivation for the job came back, but Sanity is a constant reminder to their staff that nothing that you ever do will ever be good enough, and greed can never be met. Nothing will ever be enough, and no appreciation or support will ever be given. Minimum wages with disposable staff makes for suicidal times.
For $11 an hour its not worth listening to my asshole area manager degrade and humiliate me in front of my staff members for utterly ridiculous reasons. I think the last straw came after the whole fiasco with the nut job customer saying I got my tits out, AM publicly declared he supported the customer, and then banned the staff from talking about anything non work related just in case someone was left on hold again.
I'm not ready to move out but If I don't do it now the opportunity may not come along again for another 6 months or a year.
Quitting my job and deciding to move out of my parents house for the first time, seems stupid to me, but I need to get out of sanity. I'm worried at the prospect of increasing the huge debt I have already accumulated after a string of really shitty cars. I'm not sure what to do about my horse. I absolutely adore him but he is costing me over $300 a month and will be really sick for at least the next 2 months after contracting horse flu. I really do not want to lose him. I'm not sure what to do about my dog. I doubt the place we move into will allow pets. Moving in with Jordyn again is a HUGE risk, seeing how badly it went the last time. I'm hoping that we have both improved our communication skills and the fact that it's not a family environment will make things different second time round. I think not having to answer to my parents will make for even bigger temptations.
