Friday night was a huge failure. I really wanted to go to CP's gig, but I couldn't knowing Zac would be there. The plans were to go to Kevs farewell party with B and P, but P pulled out because she was too hungover and Jake told me B couldn't come anymore. Made plans to go with Heather, who also had agreed to do CP's door at the gig, arrived at 7:30 when she was meant to start at 8:30 so I was all dressed and didn't even make it out the driveway because she didn't have enough time. Then after I had had a shower and washed my hair B calls to say she was always planning to come but by then it was too late. Then the internet broke and there was a large bug in my room, so all I did was pretty much lay about thinking about how sad I felt.
In the last weekend I have been asked out on a date by 6 different fucking people. This shit is so fucking retarded, its like I have slut written across my forehead. The worst part was when the security guard at work asked me out to coffee 'I never do this, but I think you're so lovely, would you like to go out with me to coffee?' I said 'No.' and literally sprinted away from him in the opposite direction. He doesn't fucking know me, I'm not fucking lovely. Just. Fuck. Off. Where I was last night some wanker kept on at me 'oh you're so beautiful' etc. and described what I was wearing the one and only time I've ever met him over a year ago. Fuck this shit, people are so fucking retarded and creepy. Rationally it doesn't really make sense to be offended when someone says they like you, but its not like I've ever done anything that would imply that I would be interested in any one of them, its stupid and it makes me feel incredibly awkward. I hopefully I can keep pulling the 'I just got out of a long relationship' card for some time now.
Last night I went to Bobby's hens night and to McKenna's for drinks. Still feeling pretty fucking sad. Work is a good thing right now, becoming better friends with the lovely girl that works there, we are going to do some drinking this Saturday night.
