Yesterday I was walking along and all of a sudden I felt mega mega dizzy, and I could see everything like it was on the trip again. I saw things all in one way, like watching a movie like Shrek or toy story, its like being inside one of those movies and seeing everything looking like that. I was looking at things and they would string as I turned my head and all of a sudden I couldnt really breathe and I 'feinted'. Its no big deal Im pretty sure it was just a panic attack.
R chose not to go over B's last night, I got super pissed off at him during the day because he sent me a message by mistake that was meant to be for her, it didnt say anything bad I just thought he was intentionally trying to rile me up, and the outcome was him not even going to B's at all because he thought I was mad with him and that he had concluded he couldnt be with her.
When I got home I was feeling really weird again, I was lying down and it felt like I was out of my body. Its like when u take too much ecstacy and you buzz and cant feel anything, but my heart was beating really fast. I was feeling the worst. the worst. I had this big talk to R about everything and I really wish I hadn't of. I've no reason to be feeling like this, things arent even that bad.
I have an imaginary cloud smothering me with imaginery problems.
